Respect select heart Tuesday, August 27, 2002 At 6 AM this morning as I slept, I almost swallowed my tongue. I was driving a small car in a snowstorm. I had been living in a valley for two years and went back to your house in the mountains. I knew you wouldn't be there. I just sat in my car in the snow in front of your old house. But, then I saw people inside, and they were having a going away party for you. It was if you hadn't gone away before, but now you were really going for good. I went in the house. I don't think anyone noticed. I saw your picture when you were younger and had long hair. Now you were way older and had long hair again. My chest felt like a clenched baseball glove. I had not caught a ball. I had just lost you forever. Later, I was reading your guestbook and hoping there was something I could add that would change everything. I was reading backwards hypertext as through a mirror. I could actually read the webpage in my dream. When I woke up, I felt like the dream I had was utterly the most powerful dream I have ever had. I walked around the apartment in the dark, and it was really scary and cold. I felt like a very clear idea was produced in my head. |
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